The sky falls and I ask myself.... WHY???

I had one of those days today that deserves a well rounded rant. Am I going to rant? Perhaps. I really am going to attempt not to. I do want to say this though.

In my life there are so many factors that are out of my control. One thing that is, is my wish to have no drama. Now when I say drama, I am almost positive that I am getting an eye roll as you begin imagining me sucker-punching some backstabber in the face. Sadly, it is nothing quite so poetic.

I am talking about drama in our "Special Needs Inner Circle".

Every day there are therapies, phone calls, appointments, paperwork and meetings. EVERYDAY. I am not kidding. Everyone in our inner circle knows that we have no room nor time for drama, and for the most part that is respected. Except for by one group. I am not going to say which group that is, but I am thinking that we have hit the "enough is enough" mark now.

Today I was told 3 ridiculous whoppers of lies from this particular group... the kind of lies that make you feel like you have officially entered the Twilight Zone.

Enough is enough.

I would love to go into more detail right now, but I dont think I am in the correct mind set to do it with grace.

My New Years resolution this year was to try and let go of some of my anger... but it is so hard when this stuff happens on a daily basis. Some days I want to scream, "An inch!!! Just one inch here! I am only one woman!" Some days are worse than others though.

When it comes to being a mother of children with special needs, I have learned there is a certain way people expect you to act. Meek is a great example of this. I am not meek. I am patient but I am not meek, but I think that folk are getting a bit confused with the difference.

I am a mother of three children with special needs and I am beginning to lose patience.

Yet, I am still holding on to the fantasy that this is not a rant.

Bacon Cheeseburger Macaroni Soup

This is what was for dinner last night. I live in a house of a huge bacon fan and a huge cheese macaroni fan, so I decided to whip up this soup. A few years back I had ordered it in a cafe from back home and throroughly enjoyed it, so I decided to try and whip it up last night. It. Was. Tasty. I am going to say though that if you are lactose intollerant, this is NOT the soup for you.

Bacon Cheeseburger Macaroni Soup

1 pound hamburger
1 package of bacon
2 boxed delux macaroni and cheese (the kind where the pouches of cheese or thick cheese, not powder)
1 gallon of whole milk
1 small chopped onion
1/4 cup parmesan
1 tablespoon garlic
salt and pepper as enjoyed

First thing, cut up raw bacon into small pieces and throw in pan to fry. Once the bacon is getting good and brown, throw in the hamburger and chopped onion. As soon as the hamburger is lightly browned, pull from heat and drain the works. Next place it all in a large pot (if you have a big chili pot, now would be the time to use it) and add the milk, macaroni noodles and the garlic. Simmer on medium for a good 30-40 minutes until the noodles are tender. Stir pretty frequently though, it has a tendency to stick to the bottom of the pot. Once noodles are tender, add cheese sauce and parmesan. Finally throw in a bit of salt and pepper (for me, a ton of pepper). Enjoy!!!

PS. Don't fill your bowl to the top. This is an extremely filling soup!