But what about when it doesn't? What happens when you find yourself starting to suffocate?
When a person has a child, they acknowledge the fact that children are costly. There are so many aspects that make child-rearing expensive...
What happens when that child is one with special needs?
What happens when another surprise baby comes along?
What happens when THAT baby has special needs?
I know! You pull up your big girl panties and get on with it!
I am in the midst of attending college. I go to school online and will eventually work from home. I am also looking at other thins I can do for my family to start pulling in some income. I am considering starting up and at-home Apothecary and possibly Specialty Treats. I need to do something with my life and I think maybe this could be a good step for me. Keith is attending college full-time for Massage Therapy. We are BOTH in college. Probably not the smartest move, but is the move we chose.
As I am writing this, I wonder what the point of this blog could possibly be? It isn't really a rant; as I am actually not angry. It's maybe a bit of a whine? Maybe a whine about the fact I have yet to win the lottery? Have an unknown great-uncle Herman leave me his fortune?
It's truthfully a whine about my lack of control of my financial situation. About my fear of the unknown... where my family will be sitting in a year from now. I am afraid, and because of that, I whine.
I do believe that we can control our own destinies... to a point. I do know that it is up to me to make sure my family is OK... that we can afford all the things my children need. I know I need to squeeze my destiny by the balls and whip my life into shape.
Monday, June 21, 2010
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Live and Let Live
Take a moment and play make believe with me.
Imagine it is the year 2010. Imagine we live in a world where it is not OK to have a different religion that your neighbor. Where the color of your skin earns you sneers. Where you are not free to love who you want without hate flowing your way. Imagine a place where people with disabilities are tormented and teased and you can be hated due to gossip.
Now, go ahead and come back to reality.
That's right... we are in reality.
This is our reality. We live in a world so full of hate and judgments that people cannot see past themselves anymore. The world is not seeing the beauty which is called "difference". How are we to learn from each other, if we are all the same? I hate to think of our children's future... of MY children's futures. I want our generation and our children's generation to accept one another and accept each others life choices.
Here's the kicker... how does it begin? How do we start making the change? Can a handful of people start the wave that could one day lead to acceptance?
It takes one person. One person to attend a Pagan wedding or say congrats to the union of Mike and Troy or stop for a conversation with the Special Needs Greeter at the mall. One person to show that a persons heart can be open to all.
I want to be that person. Do you?
Imagine it is the year 2010. Imagine we live in a world where it is not OK to have a different religion that your neighbor. Where the color of your skin earns you sneers. Where you are not free to love who you want without hate flowing your way. Imagine a place where people with disabilities are tormented and teased and you can be hated due to gossip.
Now, go ahead and come back to reality.
That's right... we are in reality.
This is our reality. We live in a world so full of hate and judgments that people cannot see past themselves anymore. The world is not seeing the beauty which is called "difference". How are we to learn from each other, if we are all the same? I hate to think of our children's future... of MY children's futures. I want our generation and our children's generation to accept one another and accept each others life choices.
Here's the kicker... how does it begin? How do we start making the change? Can a handful of people start the wave that could one day lead to acceptance?
It takes one person. One person to attend a Pagan wedding or say congrats to the union of Mike and Troy or stop for a conversation with the Special Needs Greeter at the mall. One person to show that a persons heart can be open to all.
I want to be that person. Do you?
Cant Touch This!
If you could have a Soundtrack to go through life with, what would it contain? When you were stressed would it play a good "System of a Down" song? A little "Mariah Carey" when you are feeling romantic? A little "Marvin Gaye" when you are ready for making some fake babies?
I have thought of this question and if I had a "Life Soundtrack", I think I wold have "MC Hammer" on repeat. Something about "MC Hammer" just makes me smile, whether it's the lighthearted lyrics, the goofy outfits or the body pumpin beats. "MC Hammer" is my man.
I can imagine going through my every day activities with some tunes in the background. I can picture getting the kids ready in the morning and out the door for our day full of action with a little "Too Legit To Quit" floating in the air. Shake shake shakin my booty as kids get loaded in the van and arm pumping on the way to the clinic.
It would at least take the edge off.
The edge.
Maybe a little music would help me to not fall over it.
Things are going a little smoother these days; in some area's anyways. The therapy itself is going great here. We really hope to be able to stay in the area permenantly and we both have our fingers crossed. Not so great is ust everyday routine. I am working my tail off trying to create one, but I am failing miserably. I need to become organized, energized and motivated but it seems the more I strive to be, the more I falter. I end u so stressed it feels like I can barely function thus making me worse of than in the beginning.
There's that damn edge again.
I can do this. I can get get my ass in gear and get this show on the road, I know I can! I can maintain my positive outlook and maintain my positive energy towards others.
"Can't Touch This (na nanana nana nana)"
Oops, sorry about that... kinda a little bit of an attention falter.
At least it keeps me from that damn edge.
I have thought of this question and if I had a "Life Soundtrack", I think I wold have "MC Hammer" on repeat. Something about "MC Hammer" just makes me smile, whether it's the lighthearted lyrics, the goofy outfits or the body pumpin beats. "MC Hammer" is my man.
I can imagine going through my every day activities with some tunes in the background. I can picture getting the kids ready in the morning and out the door for our day full of action with a little "Too Legit To Quit" floating in the air. Shake shake shakin my booty as kids get loaded in the van and arm pumping on the way to the clinic.
It would at least take the edge off.
The edge.
Maybe a little music would help me to not fall over it.
Things are going a little smoother these days; in some area's anyways. The therapy itself is going great here. We really hope to be able to stay in the area permenantly and we both have our fingers crossed. Not so great is ust everyday routine. I am working my tail off trying to create one, but I am failing miserably. I need to become organized, energized and motivated but it seems the more I strive to be, the more I falter. I end u so stressed it feels like I can barely function thus making me worse of than in the beginning.
There's that damn edge again.
I can do this. I can get get my ass in gear and get this show on the road, I know I can! I can maintain my positive outlook and maintain my positive energy towards others.
"Can't Touch This (na nanana nana nana)"
Oops, sorry about that... kinda a little bit of an attention falter.
At least it keeps me from that damn edge.
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