Good Morning Blog!  I have my coffee in hand and for some strange reason, I thought about you immediately after waking.  I have been trudging through the morning routines so that I could make my way to you and see what was in store for me.  Looks like it is going to be a beautiful day and that makes me happy! My Gage and I are going to buzz to town today and grab a couple of groceries and see if we can find a couple of rummage sales!  I am on the hunt for kids jammies since everyone just keeps growing!

I am feeling pretty darned good today.  I think I almost NEED sunshine at this point in my life!  I definitely struggle on the cloudy days.  The weather is supposed to be really nice this week, so I think Melissa and I are going to wrangle up the kiddo's and meet some folks up at Hayes this week!  We all need some Summer fun after all of the driving and appointments!

Well, I suppose I had best get off here again.  The sunshine is calling me outside, and I do not want to fight the command!  Ta-ta for now!

Poopered Out....

The last few weeks have been insane in our neck of the woods.  A blur.  A headache.  Appointments for the kids have been coming out my ears, paperwork is piling up and everyone is spiraling out of control.  I desperately need a break and am looking forward to the 4th of July pretty enormously!  


It is 11:39pm right now and Bo is fighting sleep.  He has been up since 7:00am and did not take a nap today.  He is a complete bear right now and is kicking the side of his crib.  Cote is upstairs in her crib and I can hear her yelling and singing and trying to wake Gage up all of the way down here.  Everyone is struggling in our neck of the woods these days.  Last Thursday Bo and Cote both had extensive oral surgery.  Their teeth grew in with no enamel and thus are slowly rotting away.  Super awesome.  On the bright side, they made ith through surgery OK and that is always something to thank the stars for!  Yesterday we had to head down to Maple Grove for their Opthamology appointment.  17 hours in a car total between driving time, feedings and changes.  Super awesome.  Both of the kids need glasses again, and I instantly fantasize about all of the nervous breakdowns my future holds as I fight to keep those glasses on their faces.  *hysterical laughter*


On the bright side, Bo is now aware of the TV, but he only has eyes for Elmo.  Also, he stood up one all on his own.  Besides that, he has mastered the fine art of not only throwing a decent tantrum, butt throwing a decent tantrum in public, lol.  Oh, and I cut his hair into a faux-hawk for the summer :)


Cote is now army crawling.  She can get from sitting to laying and laying to sitting all on her own.  She can play with pretty much any toy now.  She hates girly things of any kind.  She hates my kisses and smashes my ego on a daily basis.  She loves her new car seat and rubs the back of her head on it's fabric until all she smells like is burnt hair.  She laughed at me when I fell down tonight.  *hysterical laughter*


Gage is having some struggles with his sensory issues right now.  We have therapists and teachers and everyone else under the sun out at our place for the Summer and as much as it is so exceedingly helpful for Bo and Cote, it is hindering Gage's progress.  He is in T-Ball now and loving it!  After a 3 week summer break, we have now started up studies at home to try and get him caught up educationally so that we can start Kindergarten at home this Spring.  As worried as I was about his reaction to Homeschooling, he is completely cool with it.  Also, his hair is getting insanely long!


Keith will soon be moving to third shift and I could just about sob with relief.  For our family, third shift means that he will come home in the morning and have breakfast with the kids.  Then he will head off to bed and Melissa will give me a hand through the day.  Then in the afternoon, Keith will get up and spend the evening with us and help me do the bedtime routine with the kids.  Then he will head off to work.  *my heart swells with happiness*  I so desperately need this new routine.  Second shift has not been kind to us, so at this point I could just fall over with glee.


As for me, I am just fried.  My nerves are shot, I am over stressed, my hair is falling out and I have lost all patience with grown people.  What one was a support circle is starting to feel like a triangle.  Family that I thought were there for us either cause drama or avoid us like the plague.  I am tired and I get confused and I guess I just don't understand folks anymore.  Then again, maybe it's just me.  Maybe I am just stretched so entirely thin that I don't have the patience to see things from others points of view.  I guess for me I just struggle because I thought that even if my friends pushed me out of theirs and their families lives, Keith, the kids and I would always have OUR extended families.  Maybe the forces that be have a much bigger plan for us that includes independence, lol.  Who knows.  On a higher note, no more appointments for the kids until August!!!  That makes me insanely happy! 


All in all, this blog entry has the tone of complete exhaustion but a strange sort of unsatisfied satisfaction.