Tae Bow Perhaps?

So, I was talking to someone recently and she commented on my ability to keep an optomistic attitude about my life. I can "keep taking hits" and am still able to keep going without being a Piss Pot Pete.

I have thought of these words today and this is the best I can answer this.

I have moments where I turn into a mushball and need a hug. I dont give a reason I just hug one of my peoples. I kiss and love on my babies and husband all day long. Secret is that it is just as much for me as it is for them. I sometimes take an extra shower so I can sit in the bottom and get my cry on. I text message my best friend all day long.

I am big on sharing. I have learned to not hold back. I feel as people we learn from each other. We grow from learning about the lives of others and we take life lessons from people daily. I will talk anatomy to physiology to emotions... anything you want to talk about, I am game for.

Unless it is my deepest emotions. Those not even I can process. I let these fester till I implode... as you can see from a couple of my earlier posts. I am a human being and sometimes I need to crumble too.

For the most part though I think of life this way... If I give up, what then? WHat will happen to each of my children? What will their lives be like? If I let myself fall into this deep depression, how will they cope? If I start bitching all day long, will they be able to process it? Children are little sponges... no matter what. They know your emotions... they can feel your emotions. They feel love and they feel sorrow and they feel anger. They dont just know it because you have spoken it, they feel it radiating off of you. SO, if I walk around being an emotional wreck, I am pretty sure that they are the ones who will be paying the toll.

So this is why or how I dont let lifes punches get me down. I CHOOSE to live life as positively as I can. This doesnt mean I dont have moments or days, but I know that with mind power I can pull my ass out of it.

I have my little protective bubble of people I can let my hair down with if I need, but mostly I keep my ducks in a row for my kids :)